Courage by Anissa

Courage
Soldier’s courage

Lying in his army bunk
Sleep won’t come
Dreaming of home
Missing his wife
Empty space by his side
Won’t be long
Must stay strong

Mother’s courage
Cross at her chest
Praying her only son
Survives the carnage
Dangerous world
She bore him to
War never ending

Hears his voice through the winter air
Whispers please take care

Sister’s courage
Reads brothers written words
Beautiful bond
Reminiscing
Missing her twin
So long it’s been

Hears his voice through the winter air
Whispers do take care

Lover’s courage
Weeps as he leaves
Kissing goodbye
Loving him more and more
Hears his voice through the winter air

Whispers, love take care.

Journey by Anissa

Anissa Ladjemi Journey Poem

A foreign land
Her place of birth
Crowds of people
Never fitting in
On the outside looking in
At ease, no
Forever alone

Countries she’s travelled
Not knowing her way
Many paths she has chosen
No compass to guide
Instinct will suffice
Keeps her from harm
Pulls her through

Never the same
Fearful spirit cannot be tamed
Dark stark hotel rooms
Taking comfort in stranger’s arms
No questions asked
Running away from her past
Burden deep in her heart
Escapism is her art

Must confront one’s sins
On the outside looking in
Forever alone
No more running
Journey’s end
Hand shaking she picks up the phone
Mother can I come home?

Virtues by Anissa

7 Heavenly Virtues by Anissa Ladjemi


His kite fly’s over the shanty town
Wind blows it high into the dusty sky.

Boy walks in, dark eyes looking big and sad
Can I ask you a favour?
My mummy’s feeling sad
Has lost her faith
Not been this bad since my brother died
She’s sick, bed bound

Could you make her feel better?
You know what it is like to suffer
Me suffer says the child born into poverty?
Oh love you have been through enough
I blink to stop my eyes welling up

So I write this letter in the vain hope
That you can take comfort from my words
In your hour of need
I fear we may be lost in translation my dear?

Different people from other sides of the world
I’m English you’re Portuguese
I don’t want to patronize you
So bear with me please.

I’m nervous don’t know where to start
What I am trying to say is this everything happens for a reason
For all the physical things you cannot do
You make up for it in other ways.

Gives you an inner strength
You’re Beautiful inside and out
It makes you strong brave and unique
Don’t you ever forget that?

Life is hard, and you want to give up, your only human
Ignore those who turn their head away who are too blind to see
The beauty that’s in you and me

Draw hope from those around you
Your loving family, wonderful son whatever it is that brings you peace
The respect you deserve and the courage to carry on?
I have faith in you I know you can

I’ll stop rambling maybe these fumbling words are of no use?
But I promised your little boy I would.
When he talks of his mummy his eyes shine bright
He will always make you proud.

His kite fly’s over the shanty town
Wind blows it high into the dusty sky.

7 Deadly Sins by Anissa

Lust...

I confess when we met
You scared me to death
A weak man who has a hungry need
To control the women he meets
Then their was you strolling right in
Making my head spin
Your blue dress, taking away my breath
Gluttonous with lust
I pounce on my prey
You humour me
Slowly we slip away
I am possessed

Lying in her bed
Desire leaves me
As fast as it came
Her eyes do not entice me
The morning after
Guilt flows through my body
Passion replaced with fear
Years of commitment
Ripped to shreds
Do I confess to my love?
I was with another?

Beware of the girl
In the blue dress
Those eyes those lips
The poisonous words
Tender caress, deadly kiss
The temptress
Do as I say not as I do
Forgive me a sinner
Most of all never tell?

Memories by Anissa Ladjemi

Happy Fathers Day Dad
Never knew you wish I had
The day you died
Only five, a child no concept of death
Changed our world turned upside down
Never the same again
Image of you faded now

Growing older think of you often
My face image of your own
Your eyes, smile like mine
Give me a sign

Look at the sky, think of you
Would we laugh and cry?
Wipe a silent tear from my eye
You smiling down
Seeing my mistakes, confusion, despair
Are you lying on fluffy clouds?
In your Sunday best, at rest?
Death was quick
What’s it like?
Did we flash through your mind?
Beautiful black and white image of happier times
Life we should have had
Happy father’s day Dad

Ocean by Anissa Ladjemi

Sun sets across an ocean sky
As the boat sails away
Into the distance
Leaving the past behind

Lost, dazed and confused
Learning to live without you
Takes courage to break free
From the shackles you bore me
Stifling my creativity
Now I am free
To roam where I please

Without harsh words
Your condescending tone
Eyes full of passion
Turned to stone

No idea what you did
You broke me you see
Stole my self esteem
Gave you pleasure
To cause me pain
Now I am sane

All are made to suffer
All are made to weep
Bruises cut me deep
I see clearly

Alone, no longer in fear
I owe you nothing
Goodbye beautiful boy
Leave me be
To roam where I please
Now I am free

Harmony by Anissa

HARMONY ANISSA LADJEMI

In harmony you and me
We begin to dance swaying to the rhythm
Our bodies coming together as one
Music stops you walk away
Moment has gone
Never found the words to say
You get me you see
More then anyone else

Eyes are the windows to the soul
Like a fire to the flame
Yours burn into mine
When I look at you my armour slips
I am unmasked
Nowhere to hide
Feeling exposed

Greatest friend I ever had
I realize now
If a man lets you go
He lives to regret it
A friendship like yours
Is hard to find
My love holds no bounds

May we dance again?
Our bodies coming together as one
Music stops I dare you to walk away
Moment is right
I blush as I speak
Sweetest words you ever heard
Relief floods through me
Finally in harmony you and me

Transition by Anissa

Transition

Not happy in my own skin
From innocent child to awkward teen
I stand in the mirror not liking what I see
How I long to rid myself of insecurity
Somebody help me please?
I remove my clothes they drop to the floor
As the artist begins to draw
The arch of my back
The curve of my breast
I am shaking from nerves
My heart beats in my chest
Soon I start to relax
Sacrificing myself in the name of art

As time goes on I start thinking differently
Growing in spirit and mind
I ask myself this how can you love another
When you don’t love yourself?
I used to be nervous of my body
The scars on my legs
A map of my past
Now when I see my reflection
I smile instead
A sign of inner strength
A wise man once said

What have I learnt on my journey of self discovery?
The difficulties life has thrown at me?
Not to worry it’s wasteful and useless in times like these
Don’t live in fear of the unknown
Know your worth there lies the key
And failure that comes to us all
But we can rise from the ashes once more
To be reborn and see ourselves in a different light
I no longer care what others think
Ladies and gentleman my transition is complete

New by Anissa Ladjemi

Never forget me and always remember to be true

I need to get out need to breathe again
To leave this place to go somewhere new
I hope you understand
Need to see if I can go it alone

Packing my bags and boarding the plane
To a new place
To an unknown land so different from my own
What will become of me?

How we met so unexpected a fleeting moment in time
I was weak and fell for your Latino charm
And so are romance began
Poor boy with holes in his clothes
Your brown skin against mine two souls intertwined
Your soft lips caressing my neck
There is no turning back

I remember your words
You said you believed in a better world beyond this one
Where there is no division between rich and poor
No poverty no hunger no hate fuelled wars
I smiled you were always so full of hope.

I sit on the beach where we met and think of the time we had
Cut short by a violent act your life taken away
While trying to help your fellow man
In a land of extremes of beauty love of good and bad
You have entered a better world you are at peace now

A long time has passed
I think of what you said to me
Stay courageous and strong
Live for the moments that bring you joy
Don’t shed any tears for me for they shall pass
Live with an open heart so you can create joyful moments with another
Somebody new
I will miss the moments we shared
Never forget me and always remember to be true.

City by Anissa

Can I Apologize?

I’m sorry miss for taking the piss

Where do I start how do I explain?
A lot of things went wrong
Joined a gang just to fit in, it started as a game doing drugs
then got caught with possession getting wasted became an obsession.

Not so tough when I was in prison
Crying at night but nobody listened
No longer a person just a thing, a number, you loose all of your being
Night after night cell slams shut, what can I do, never thought id end up a screw.

Always hated this city
Saw it as my prison
now looking through the iron bars
City lights beaming down
I see it as my freedom now.

Made myself bleed just to feel alive
A release from all the pain inside
No words to express the thoughts in my head

Miss you said you were sick of excuses
That self pity got you nowhere
Bitterness does you no good
Be responsible for all that you’ve done.

The city station clock strikes 12
You’re waiting for the train
Miss I had to tell you the news
Breaking the prison rules.

Got a job, got clean, doing all right
Turned the darkness into light
Decided to bin that knife, to get on with life
Can I apologize?

I’m sorry for my aggression
For throwing that chair
You must have been really scared
You see I never got over the abuse in care.

You smiled and said you were proud
So happy I’d found my way
I’m sorry miss for taking the piss

New by Anissa

NEW

BY ANISSA LADJEMI


Never forget me and always remember to be true

I need to get out need to breathe again
To leave this place to go somewhere new
I hope you understand
Need to see if I can go it alone

Packing my bags and boarding the plane
To a new place
To an unknown land so different from my own
What will become of me?

How we met so unexpected a fleeting moment in time
I was weak and fell for your Latino charm
And so are romance began
Poor boy with holes in his clothes
Your brown skin against mine two souls intertwined
Your soft lips caressing my neck
There is no turning back

I remember your words
You said you believed in a better world beyond this one
Where there is no division between rich and poor
No poverty no hunger no hate fuelled wars
I smiled you were always so full of hope.

I sit on the beach where we met and think of the time we had
Cut short by a violent act your life taken away
While trying to help your fellow man
In a land of extremes of beauty love of good and bad
You have entered a better world you are at peace now

A long time has passed
I think of what you said to me
Stay courageous and strong
Live for the moments that bring you joy
Don’t shed any tears for me for they shall pass
Live with an open heart so you can create joyful moments with another
Somebody new
I will miss the moments we shared
Never forget me and always remember to be true.